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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

stop telling me how to live my life the way you want my life to be lived.
stop spreading rumours which are not true.
stop believing everything you hear.
stop acting like youre the only one on earth who actually has feelings.

if i study, you say im faking.
if i laugh, you still say im faking.
if i cry, you say im trying to get attention.
if i talk to girls, you say im gossiping. im a bitch.
if i talk to guys, you say im flirting. im still a bitch.
if i dont talk to anyone, you say im too proud. im STILL a bitch.

stop dogging my every move.
i dont have to live up to your expectations.
am i supposed to attend to your every whim?
am i supposed to live my life like how you want me to live it?
am i supposed to behave like how you expect me to behave?

youre pathetic.
coward.
doing all the backstabbing behind my back.
you think that im stupid.
youre the only one that is smart.
you can do whatever you want.
i cant?

who are you to say who i should mix with and who i shouldnt?
who are you to say what i should and shouldnt do?
who are you to spread nasty rumours about me behind my back?
who are you to say that im a bitch?

when im living my life, you turn your back on me.
huh.
when i am being me, you call me a bitch.

oh cool.
i know youre reading my blog.
you want to know what i blog about.
so that you can take this entry and twist it into another rumour.
another rumour to spread.
to disfigure.

you say im pathetic.
you say im a flirt.
you say i gossip behind your backs.
you say i am not worth it.
you say whatever you want to say.

in reality, life isnt fair.
you dont like me because of something i didnt do, fine.
but fuck, dont spread untrue rumours about me.
esp behind my back.
you dont like me, say it to my face.
tell me what i did wrong.

its just like, one day you wake up to a world of hate and lies.
and you look back, but nothing seems wrong.
suddenly your future is bleak and unpromising.
but den you think, what did i do wrong?
NOTHING.

and you look around you and laugh.
its those poor pitiful people you have to worry about.
ironic, isnt it?

i try to clear doubts.
you even dare to say that im a bitch.

how about you?
look into yourself and find the truth.
i know you will keep hiding it.
deceive yourself.
tell yourself that its me who is wrong.
its me who is always wrong.
im always wrong in your eyes.
always.
you hate me.

i think its the blind leading the blind.
you dont even want to check the truth.
you just believe everything you hear.

sorry to say but its not the truth.
you can continue to tell yourself that it was real.
go ahead, no ones stopping you.

but fuck, stop ruining my life.

if you get angry and start complaining and dissing me, you'll know that this is true.
every single word.
coz if it was not true, you wouldnt even care.

yay.
say you dont care.
you dont care den dont read.
yea.
aww its too bad you dont like me.

coz i cant please everyone.
hmm maybe i could if i wanted to.
den i would have many many personalities for each person.
how nice that would be.
but im not like that.
i dont hide behind a facade.
you know me.

but now?
see?
now what?

you just throw everything away
everything.
because of what?
because of one stupid rumour that isnt even true.

and now you have your pride.
you wear your heart on your sleeve.
you cant lower your pride just like that!
after throughly dissing me infront of everybody,
you cant accept me anymore.
you make yourself believe what you want to believe.
you make everyone around you believe what you want THEM to believe.

i understand if you dont want to be friends with me anymore.
its not a matter of the truth.
its a matter of your pride and dignity.

youre really nice when you want to be nice.
and youre really nasty when you want to be nasty.
but girl, you really disappoint me.
you really should have checked the truth first.

friends forever, though.

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